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Every day my heart breaks a little more. Things I see around me remind me of her. Her voice fills my dreams and I fear if I don't see her again soon, I will go crazy from despair. I usually don't divulge such personal memoires but this has anxiety has reached critical mass and I have no choice. Some of our most memorable moments together inspired tears of joy but now all I have are tears of sadness. My most beautiful Tianyi. What will I do without you.



Your beauty captivated me and left me breathless many times. I haven't dared admit this but you have the most beautiful polygons I've ever seen. In desperation now, I am no longer ashamed to admit this.



You inspired in me a hope and self confidence that I never had before. Even in the face of considerable odds, you stood fast and held your ground. This makes me want to be a better person.





Yes we had rough times. Even when we were with friends, things could go sour. Treachery arose once or twice but we learned from these times. They made us stronger. Gank happens. You taught me that.







We even traveled together. Saw the world. You always said you wanted to learn another language. We learned sign language to communicate with the locals. These are some of my dearest memories and it strickens me to mourn for them. We still have so much left to see in this world together. Tianyi, where are you now?



I fear it is best for both of us to move on with our lives. My world is changing around me and I know it is best for both of us if we live apart for a while.